This Used To Be My Playground

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I was notified by WordPress yesterday that I’ve been blogging for 6 years. I knew the anniversary was sometime in October, I just wasn’t positive of the exact date.

I used to be able to share every detail of my life without much of a problem. But nowadays, the idea gives me a bad case of the nerves.

Me no likey being open, raw and honest anymore.

Life changes…people come, they go, they break your heart, they stay, they love you, they hate you, summer turns to winter, children get older, suicidal urges take up brain space, handfuls of pills are taken with sips of Aquafina, husbands cheat…the earth continues to rotate and reality television stars become president.

I won’t be a drama queen and say that I’m closing up shop, but my days of posting on a regular basis are over with. If you don’t see me around much, I can promise you (about 87%) that I’m just peachy fucking keen.

I haven’t been a fan of Madonna since like 1988, but to steal the title of one of her songs, this used to be my playground.

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I Want To Know What Love Is


I Want To Know What Love Is by Foreigner 1984

I gotta take a little time, a little time to think things over
I better read between the lines, in case I need it when I’m older
Now this mountain I must climb, feels like the world upon my shoulders
Through the clouds I see love shine, it keeps me warm as life grows colder
In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far, to change this lonely life
I want to know what love is, I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is, I know you can show me
I’m gonna take a little time, a little time to look around me
I’ve got nowhere left to hide, it looks like love has finally found me
In my life there’s been heartache and pain
I don’t know if I can face it again
Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far, to change this lonely life
I want to know what love is, I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is, I know you can show me
I want to know what love is, I want you to show me
(And I want to feel) I want to feel what love is
(And I know) I know you can show me
Let’s talk about love, I want to know what love is
The love that you feel inside, I want you to show me
And I’m feeling so much love, I want to feel what love is
No, you just can’t hide, I know you can show me
I want to know what love is (let’s talk about love), I know you can show me
I want to feel it too, I want to feel what love is
I want to feel it too, and I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah, I want to know what love is

44 Tidbits of Knowledge

In honor of my upcoming birthday, I’m sharing 44 tidbits of knowledge that I’ve acquired since the day the doctor who delivered me smacked my bum as I entered this world.

You guys ready?

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Hurry up! This isn’t gonna drink itself!

Cool.

  1. Life is too short for cheap lunchmeat or toilet paper.
  2. Teach yourself how to notify a person to go to hell with just your eyes.
  3. Don’t be afraid to cry or show your emotions.
  4. If you love someone, tell them whenever you have the opportunity.
  5. Decide to write a post like this when you’re in your 20’s, it’s a much less daunting task.
  6. Don’t stay with someone who makes you struggle all alone in this life.
  7. Follow that gut instinct, it’ll rarely steer you wrong.
  8. Disappear for a few days and then take notice of who goes looking for you.
  9. Chocolate milk really does come from brown cows!!

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    What the fucking moo?

  10. Believe in the nonsensical.
  11. Only apologize for the things that you’re truly sorry for. (This takes so much practice to conquer.)
  12. I’m sorry.
  13. See? Fuck.
  14. Life is a whole helluva lot easier if you have a good sense of humor.
  15. Do kind things for strangers, like letting them cut in line at the store when they only have 3 items and you have 20.
  16. It’s never too late to start over again.
  17. Although it’s wonderful when someone wants to take care of you, know how to take care of yourself just in case they decide otherwise.
  18. Anger is a kickass motivational tool; use it wisely.
  19. From a plaque that my mom had on the wall from my childhood home: My house is clean enough to be healthy, but dirty enough to be home.
  20. A hug from the right person has healing powers.
  21. Life would truly suck without animals and music.
  22. I had my daughter when I was 22. Half of my life has now been blessed with her existence.
  23. Go ahead and take that nap. You’re not lazy!
  24. Hold onto 16 as long as you can, change come around real soon, make us women and men.
  25. Swearing in and of itself isn’t bad; it’s all in how you use it.
  26. No matter where life takes you, remember where you came from.
  27. Please do not tolerate any bullshit.
  28. DON’T SETTLE.
  29. There is so much more to a person than what they look like.
  30. There is beauty in imperfection.
  31. If someone breaks your heart, swaddle it up like a baby and rock it gently.
  32. And let other people take turns helping you rock.
  33. This list is hard work…only 10 more to go!
  34. I am eating pretzels with honey mustard right now.
  35. A sink full of dishes can sit 48 hours and the world won’t stop spinning, I promise.
  36. If you want to find your tribe, start a blog.
  37. Set boundaries like boobytraps.

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    Easy as pie!

  38. Whatever will be, will be. The future’s not ours to see. -Doris Day
  39. There’s a song lyric that’s just perfect for every occasion.
  40. Let the simplest things in life bring you the most happiness.
  41. Pick a few aspirations and then try to stick with them.
  42. It’s perfectly alright to fail, just dust yourself off and when you’re ready, try again.
  43. The human body is often disgusting. For example, have you ever sneezed while eating a bowl of cornflakes?
  44. There will never be a band like The Beatles ever again.

Phew, there I did it.

Do you have anything to add to my list?

Thoughts, queries?

Bueller?